Silent night, broken night
among the stars
shattered to scar
the hope held
so close
....so close

Wanting to walk away from
questions
begging desperately
to be answered
but never satisfied
because
you can't say

You don't know
you just don't know...
And I don't know.

Chapter the Sixth

Mid-winter in Llorleya

Though Christmas is over, there are still holidays to celebrate. Kwanzah, the celebraton of African history, is celebrated starting the day right after Christmas. And let's not forget that the new year is coming! So there are still things to celebrate and even holidays to make up yet.

Remorse. It was the perfect word for what I was feeling. My eyes were blod-shot, and my face tear-stained, but there was nothing I could do but watch my life crumble before me. He was my life. I hadn't stopped thinking about him since the moment we met. And now he was gone. Forever. He was never coming back. How could he have done this to me? I needed him. I couldn't do this alone. We had no where to go. I could feel the tears coming at this point, and haistily blinked them away, taking a deep breath. As I rose from my place on the ground I began to think.

I see trees coming down
I smell the confusion in all
I hear I am in trouble for just being
I taste the food placed before my meaning
I feel betrayed by the few who believe in me
I weep for those who don't care, or care too much
I pray I will not be forgotten
I have walked many miles through the many years
I am no longer looked at as the Savior's birth but by few

You will find a baby, in a manger, in the town of Bethlehem, whose name is Jesus. This is the true meaning of Christmas. Christmas isn't about getting, it's about giving.
I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and a happy New Year!

Christmas feels different than it did before
I feel as if I'm standing before locked door
Things seem to be changing
I wish that they would stop
I feel as if more change would make my skull pop
I don't know what is wrong with me
I wish that I could find the key
To the door I cannot open
The door that I find locked
At every turn of the knob my head remains cocked
In confusion at the answers I can't seem to find
The locked portion of my very stubborned mind
Holds my Christmas Spirit
I wish I had the key

I believe that life is not as complicated as we would like to believe it is. All of the drama is our own creation. It serves no purpose except to entertain us, because we're bored. For instance: Let's say Johny has a date with Sue, but he's good friends with Beth, and Beth had a bad day. If Sue saw Johny hugging Beth, she would assume that there was something going on between them, wouldn't she? She would, because that's what we do. And she would cause a lot of drama. All because Johny tried to be a good friend to Beth. That's all he did.

She stared blankly into the darkness, waiting, wondering. Is he gone yet? She wondered, Is it safe?. Tears rolled down her face as she the pondered things that had happened that day...the horrible things that this man had done...but she couldn't think about that now. No. Not now. She cleared her head, closed her eyes and listened closely, holding her breath. She didn't hear his footsteps or the horrible ragged breathing that she had heard so frequinty. A sign that he was near. She opened her eyes, looking around the crowded coat-closet where she was hiding.

1:
Phrase: B.C., A. D.
Reason: B.C. is "Before Christ" abrreviated, and A.D. stands for "Anno Domini" which is Latin for "year of the Lord"

2:
Phrase: Merry Christmas!
Reason: DUH

3:
Phrase: Gesundheit! or Bless you!
Reason: Saying Gesundheit to some one arises from an old belief that when a person sneezes, they are trying to get rid of a devil inside of them. If someone doesn't believe in God, it's well nigh impossible to believe in the devil.