Forbbiden Love
Forbidden Love
Forbidden Love
Swept off my feet
Flying past the world
Taken by surprise,
Caught in a wild blur
Pictures and feelings
Pass by on this train
People wave,
Then say goodbye
As quickly as they came
Taking a map,
To see where I am
I plotted out every course,
Every place, every land,
Yet I feel more lost
Then I think I’ve ever been
I’ve left something behind
I used to hold inside
It slowly faded
From thought and mind
I'm learning how to say it, feel it, breathe it, live it. Up until now ("now" is another word that has been infiltrating my vocabulary), I was all about tomorrow. Yesterday was something painful....now that I look back on it, yesterday was painful because I was too busy chasing after tomorrow.
Today.
Now I see that our God is a God of the Now, the God of Today. Because He is not bound by time, he is the God of the Now.
Do you see how comforting that is?
Disappointment
Sinking slowly when
All I see isn't him
That expected face
Long-awaited, even
Promised
No warning
No justification, just
Gone
His missing face
Steals my joy
His missing face
Builds my frustration
His missing face
Snuffs my hopes for today
And raises my hopes for tomorrow
Left, with bruised heart. Beating a steady weary beat, behind the cover of fear. Afraid to love. Afraid to be loved. Everything just seems...like betrayal. Everything ends, just as the heart begins to open; cautiously, quietly, and then it cringes, because it's gone.
Did I read the stories wrong
Were all the old songs untrue
The tapestries woven, long and grand
Told endings that I thought would be
I didn't think that I would stumble
Or get lost within my feelings
Yet Love, dressed in her gown of red and white
Danced before my eyes, transfixing my gaze
Passion pushed me near her,
I took her hand in mine,
With her I danced for hours as the stars shined
Joy sweeping through me like a warm summer's breeze,
Nothing as sweet as when I kissed her soft cheek
Shadows lay somber dismissing laughter
The hanging stars presently concealed
Though in eyes of the elf they still shine
He stands steady amid the field
Tireless, gazing along the path
Resting the eagerness of mind
The pale moon now comes forth
From under the blanket of dense cloud
Reflects on the bow between swift fingers
Glitters on the work of great endeavoring
Made fairly, the bow from Caras Galadhon
For use of the elves who in Lorien linger
Chapter the Twenty-sixth
We are so weak,
so selfish,
so cold.
We have known evil,
and hatred,
and sin.
Therefore, we are nothing. Beyond hope, beyond saving, beyond ever becoming what we could be.
Beyond ever being loved.
One could have said that of us
but He didn't.
He loved us.
He loved us anyway.
The world is so ruined,
so misguided,
so cold.
It has known evil,
and hatred,
and sin.
Therefore, it is nothing. Beyond hope. Beyond saving, beyond ever becoming what it could be.
Beyond love.