Picking myself up,

one more time

I'm trying,

to see through tears 

once more, is my light dying?

I've surrendered 

all that I know how,

can You just answer

and hold my heart?

It's been full and heavy

I want You 

to renew it

into what will reflect Yours.

My littleness

is breaking

my humanity overtaking.

Will You set this right?

I'm asking for You to fight the fight.

When burdens are heavy

When pathways are dark

      It had been freezing that whole week. Ohio set records in February for the most snow. We were tight on money, my family and me. Luckily my dad had just gotten a semi-stable position but who knew for how long it would last. I was very busy in those weeks looking for work, of any kind really. Then I found it. The perfect position. One snowy and blustery day. But you know how life is with it's twists and turns, ups and downs; unpredictable. 

Can you hear me? Please try. Please hear me mamma. I want to know you. Why don’t you want to know me? Why don’t you feel my longing? Why don’t you feel my yearning? Why can’t you understand my love for you?

Mamma, I want to see your beautiful face. I want to hear your voice murmur softly. I want to feel your hands gently caress me. I want you to love me. I just can’t understand this. Why are you so blind to my miracle?