I’m waiting for you,
You told me you’d come.
And I’ll keep on waiting
‘Til this world is gone.
I’m waiting for you,
In this cold, dark place.
Hoping by chance
I will see your bright face.
I’m waiting for you,
Though the hours grow long.
But I must keep waiting
And singing this song.
I’m waiting for you,
My head in my hands.
It’s sure getting harder
I don’t understand.
I’m crying so quietly,
Thinking of you.
And I feel the pain
As my heart breaks in two.
*waves dramatically* HI!! haha, this time last year I couldn't stop wondering "What am I gonna do after I graduate?"..Now i'm astounded that I used to have free time. I'm taking creative writing classes online, and the last one took was mostly ...erm, essay? yeah, we'll go with that one..The last class I took was Essay/personal exploration type writing, so I didn't have much time to write poetry or fiction. But, guess who has a 2 week break :)!
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The Empty Girl,
Wrapped in a mirror
All Icy blue
DISCLAIMER: Contains mature thematic content (i.e. mentions drunk driving, one strong word edited with asterisks)
DISCLAIMER: Mild language, edited out with asterisks :).
Monday.
At 1:15am the moon will rise over a greenish Uranus, I don’t know what to say to him, I say I’m in love but yet I hate these awkward pauses, football football farmer’s almanac, maybe I’m not as desperate as I thought, yes he is attractive and wonderful, but this is sort of liberating, we’re just friends I am declaring it as true.
Monday.
He made things happen for me today
His blue eyes smiled from dawn till dusk
He told me I’d do good things
I believed him and I still do
I’m on cloud nine right now
I’m feeling so much less empty
Not so alone
Things are finally coming together.
Tuesday.
I like my new friends
I’m busy
All the time
With school, with work
They fit into my schedule
Conveniently
Like puzzle pieces
Might as well have stuffed explosives down my throat
They've found a way to blow up my heart
An elephant is sleeping on my chest and it won't listen to me, it won't get
off
The scent of the end has wafted in through my window
We are going to decay
Like a dead mouse hidden by undergrowth
Hold on tight, it's almost over.
1. Snapshots
I sometimes wish I could catch
those special moments with a camera
plant them in my mind and never stop seeing them
replay them over and over in my head
you are beautiful
when you look at me that way
my heart does things that a human heart shouldn’t
have the ability to do while I’m still breathing
like stop for a few breaths
then let it go again
please just let me
love you like you know I can
1. Freckles
you have a lot of freckles
i had never been close enough to notice
they all kind of join together
i like them
2. Oops
i thought i was over you
seriously, this time
but she said you were cute
and i wanted to claw her eyes out
oops
here we go again
3. Well Okay
letting go
is harder
than i thought
4. Oh Well
i can miss you
with all my might
but you won’t
miss me back
it’s okay
no big deal
i’ll keep missing you anyway
1. Eternity
If I’m to live forever
I should pray that you will, too
Because, dear God, I wouldn’t want to live
Without, my darling, you
2. It Was a Bad Day
Maybe all these big girl dreams aren’t for me after all
Maybe I wasn’t born to go to college and get married
Maybe I wasn’t made for the usual course
Maybe I was born with wild eyes
Maybe I was born for the road.
1. Inward Chaos
You make me a quiet kind of crazy
Send me into internal turmoil
I don’t think you know
But if you do, you’re good at hiding it
2. Head Over Heels
I’m enraptured by every part of you
They say eyes are a reflection of a person’s soul
If that’s the case, yours is beautiful
I’ve never met someone like you
I don’t think I will again.