(I had to re-post this as poetry, instead of fiction)

 

Here is a little more randomness--fruit of my writing assignments for class. For this one, I had to take line from a poem I'd already written and write a new poem with it, and then take a line from the new one and do it again...

  “Ode (O You who have loved me)”   O You who have loved me into life will You catch my fall? do You promise You will be there if I give up the ground and dare to drop from the heights my heart has climbed to? such a long way down from self-possession Hope, hold tight my heart in the dark between the leaping and the everlasting arms the half-second fall holy in-between when the world holds it breath with mine hanging by a hope something larger than my life o You who have walked this way before will You be patient with my pain? weakness unwanted nature’s strength betrayed will You catch my tears? sweat like blood seeds into good soil for the life of the world for the life of my heart a garden enclosed waiting waking and You come with the long-lost key unlock the springtime and You love me into life ----   “Holy in-between”   holy in-between now who I was and who I want to be meet here meet, make me who I am threaten to break my heart but You wake me You say “be still” remind me here is where I find You free my mind from its captivity between body and soul retrieve, rein-in my heart from flying fast ahead into tomorrow with its dream of holiness and love come easy leave me held and helpless here with You and still and bring me to the holy in-between where who I was and who I will be fall away before the face of who You’re making me today and teach me patience with myself with this small place where fault and grace collide show me my weakness and my pride stop my relentless striving hold me heal me and take me where I cannot go the still inside the storm this moment’s dream the holy in-between ----    “Take me where I cannot go”   take me where I cannot go I’m wearied from the work of striving to be strong and plodding on through valleys filled with shadow seeking pastures holding out their promises of green to weary feet come shepherd me into some still small place where I am unafraid to rest come be my light and fight the shadows lies that tell me I am far away and steal my memory of daylight I need You to be Simon when my cross is heavy and I am lost and cannot love alone take my loaves and fishes bless and break them make them big enough to fill the restless hole inside hearts hungry   for Someone big enough to make it all worthwhile come and find me where I am ‘cause I am weary and I can’t find my way to you and wandering’s wearing holes in my shoes each step I take is my undoing and as the ground beneath me wavers I stare into Your face reaching for the day when I can finally see you do You ache for it like I do? can You see the love, the longing that keep me walking? heart wandering in exile cries out to Yours like deep to deep come take me where I cannot go