Hello my fellow APers! I am still alive yay! Life has been incredibly insane, but I wrote this today and wanted to post it. I have been praying and interceding for a certain person for a little while now. I felt God tell me I would have the opportunity to minister to this person and show God's love, life, and light to them. This has been confirmed over and over for me in various ways including Bible verses, devotion readings, even things strangers and friends have said in passing. Today however, I found out this person is likely leaving the only place I ever get to see them because they were given a better opportunity. We have no contact outside of this place, and no good way to establish contact. I don't even know if I will ever get to see this person again. I am feeling a whirlwind of emotions right now, including disappointment, confusion, and doubt. I am not so sure what God has planned now, hence the poem to sort out some feelings. I wanted to put it up before I edited it or decided not to post it at all. I think sometimes it is good to show that we can still feel so many conflicting emotions, including doubt, but still ultimately confirm our trust in God despite how we feel.