Trying to keep my heart at bay
Trying to keep feelings out of the way
Reason should rule, because it's reliable
Emotions, however, are far too liable
To sway back and forth, causing only distress
So I allow Reason to be the mistress
Of my mind's household; decisions are made
By her, and my heart must obey.
At least, that was the plan.
But the more I try
And the harder I fight
To let reason have command
The more I find
Myself responding

When faced with a decision

Of difficult degrees,

I tried to solve it on my own,

And so pride drove me to my knees.

My heart was weak and sad,

And in my indecision

I bowed my sinful head and asked

For God to be my vision.

I waited hours, days, and weeks,

But just when hope was lost,

He answered me and gave me peace

To follow Him and pay the cost.

Now I shall never doubt Him

For He has spake to me

The words that never shall grow dim -

Sometimes dreaming is what keeps me alive
but sometimes I wonder if it's worth the fight
when all it appears to do is fill my mind, with
something that seems impossible for this life.

And I don't mind this world in its essence
it's the outcome I don't understand
when everything's viewed to be broken
and no one will just take a stand.

Well, I'll not lose myself in this depth, unfathomable;
a world and humanity. It's a surface smile,
a shallow love that lasts to strike, and
the match goes out, giving way to the night.