Must I struggle with my pride,
My foolishness and sin?
Why do I, with angry stride
Attempt to banish Him?
Grief reigns deep within my heart,
For I have grieved my Lord –
Succumbing to the devil’s dart
And using not my sword.
I have sinned – wilt Thou forgive
Though I am weak and poor?
I cannot see how I can live
Without Thy love forevermore.
“Precious child, let go thy load.
Have faith in Me and rest.
Need thou leave my safe abode
Whilst thou art so oppressed?
I surrender, to obey,
Everything He says, day by day.
I surrender, all my sin,
So I will win, to please Him.
I will try to no longer fall,
I answer His call,
I surrender all.
Picking myself up,
one more time
I'm trying,
to see through tears
once more, is my light dying?
I've surrendered
all that I know how,
can You just answer
and hold my heart?
It's been full and heavy
I want You
to renew it
into what will reflect Yours.
My littleness
is breaking
my humanity overtaking.
Will You set this right?
I'm asking for You to fight the fight.
When burdens are heavy
When pathways are dark
i give this heart
the one that's torn
i give this yes
the one that yearns
i give this life
the one with love
love and sacrifice
i give this heart
the one that's sore
i give this amen
and it hurts more
i give my words
my actions
burn
i give this heart
the one with joy
i give this smile
for you to enjoy
i give this song
with all
of what holds meaning
i give to you
my everything
fog,
drifting,
ghost like
shadows, dark but alluring
meeting the sky.
I'm asleep in reality
not awake in a dream,
almost serene
but aching.
silent weight
encompassing my hearts throng
turning it low and melodious.
I wish someone would sing along
to the forgotten bars
of my song.
low,
deep,
sweet.
my heart beats
melting
with the orange glow;
orange fading.
my hearts song, my life strains
the pounding quietly resounds.
the same place, a different scene
the same place, a different me
an older me
the same trees, a little taller
the same trees, different leaves
a newborn green
the same stones, a little smoother
the same stones, different tones
worn down, turned over
the same sky, different clouds
the same sky, different sounds
chase the pictures out
the same sun, the same shadows
the same shadows, different patterns
woven on the gravel
the same grass, the same color
Left, with bruised heart. Beating a steady weary beat, behind the cover of fear. Afraid to love. Afraid to be loved. Everything just seems...like betrayal. Everything ends, just as the heart begins to open; cautiously, quietly, and then it cringes, because it's gone.
o sweet exchange
which takes my heart and gives me Yours
the white host asks the question
“will you lose yourself for Me?”
o blessed hope
heart hallowed, held, unhindered
says “Amen”
tear out from me myself
pour into me Your life-blood
and the kiss of the host on my lips, my tongue
says I am not my own
and in the loss of myself, I am found