The tears kept falling
I dashed them away
Angry at how fragile I’d become
But the anger only made the
Tears fall
Thicker
Adding to the overwhelming sense of
Feeling every emotion
So strongly
It started with sympathy for
A Hollywood actor
Making pain feel tangible for a moment
While creasing over on-screen
His face a tangle of fear and
Heartbreak
“Okay?”
“Okay.”
But the truth is that I’m not
Okay
I’m broken because
A song about seeing the stars
Over Amsterdam
Has crushed my heart
And the ending titles of a romantic
Drama
Had me bawling harder than
Even I would like to
Admit
My fragile heart breaking over
Every fear that Hollywood enlightened in me
Tearing my feelings into shreds
Leaving me exhausted
And hollow
Wondering “what’s next?”
And,
“Will I ever be
“Okay?”
But it is what it is
And tomorrow may not be
Like today
So I’ll embrace fear as long
As it keeps me clinging to the cross
And I’ll embrace pain if it reminds
Me to speak to Jesus
I’ll embrace tears
Since they remind me of Living Water
And lastly I’ll embrace
The unknown
Because there is Someone
Out there
To whom unknown is nonexistent
And if He knows
What’s ahead
That is enough
For
Me