Red Balloon

Turn back time
I think that I might
It's a tantalizing prospect
Getting to redo what came untied
But when it did it showed me who
You really were inside
So I think what I want
Is to lighten my tread
Relieve my balloon
Watch it burst while within
The sky and rain bits
Of red on your laugh
Concealing it from memory
It turned out like it was meant
And I wouldn't go back

In Theory

Sometimes I look at him
And it's as if
We already know each other
But if I pull away and
Lay it out against the truth
It's painstakingly clear
How things would go
I'd be unable to coerce
Enough words from my disbelieving throat
To straighten out from being bland
He might smile and reply
With a funny thing or two
He said to some other shy
Girl five minutes due
And I've heard it all before
The rehearsed, repeated lore
When the norm becomes a bore
And those girls have run their course
Then I would lean against him for a
Chaste and palpitating second
Everything would mop together
There
Within me beneath his arm
Though when he let go
I'd never find the gall
To turn around and proclaim
My most unrelenting love
To be politely smiled at and
Scoffed while being ushered off
The premises
Simple
In theory
I would allure
Though to carry it out
Would ruin him to me
For sure

Be Me

If I saw you
If
Then all would be simple
You almost don't seem real
My feelings for you are fickle
And they come and go
In breathtaking throes
Marching in tidy, uniform rows
Filled with wonderlust
Until you do something that
Makes the spectacle go bust
It's not like it was even five months ago
I don't really want you
Because I can't claim to know
Who you are
And I don't think I want to
So I can smile when you're smiling
And think about if in a passing, thoughtless second
But, you know what, you went
Out the door with every reckoning
I have made regarding you
And it's good to be free
And it's good to be me