first i saw you standing there

i was hit, unaware, that through this I would change

I was unsure

this was obscure

and I’d been hurt too many times

I asked myself

how to see

you as I was meant too

in a way that was

first and foremost true

truly i love you

when i saw your eyes shine beneath the stars

i thought for a brief moment

of what it would be like

to have something that was ours

when i told you that what i wanted

was to never stop living this

you said that you agreed

and this intensity

became our quest

there were nights i cried out screw you

because i couldn’t take the pain

of seeing that you really are

not mine to own

or to gain

my darling i am not

magnificent or beautiful

all i am is a sinner

but i may still be

the sinner for you