I was at my sister's so when she would need to go to the hospital and have her baby, she could leave her almost two-year-old with me. So, the night my brother-in-law and sister left the hospital, I had Tori, my niece. Well, she woke up, and started crying. I go to her room, and offer to rock her. But she wants to investigate; find her parents. When she doesn't, she gets very angry, and cries. I rock her for awhile, but it still doesn't calm her down. For about thirty minutes, or longer, she's crying. Finally, in total frustration I put her back in bed, and beg God to let her fall asleep, or give me more patience. She's so young, and she didn't understand why her mommy and daddy weren't around.

The following morning she's happy, and all. We go up to the hospital (a friend takes us) and we stay for about three hours. She was excited to see mommy & daddy, and even held her new sister. But when we got home that evening, she didn't like me. You know, after seeing her parents, she didn't want to settle with anyone less. All she would do was cry, and run around the house trying to find them, or go sit on on their floor. I couldn't be any comfort to her because she didn't like me.

Trying to put her to bed that night was a pain. She had a nasty diaper, and wouldn't let me change it. She already had a diaper rash, so sitting it that wouldn't be good for it. Finally I got it changed (stinky & disgusting!!)
I was getting even more frustrated with her, and was like 'God, I can't do this! Please, please give me more patience. Keep me calm. Please!'

That night she went to sleep quickly and slept well. Probably because she had worn herself out that day, and the night before she hadn't a very good sleep.

The next day...was way worse! I was soo thankful they got home that day, even if it was so late in the evening.

There are two things I learned. Number one is when you give yourself over to God, ask for His help, He is there. Ready and willing to let you draw strength from Him. He's waiting for you to turn to Him, rely upon Him. I am so thankful He's always letting me go to Him. Without Him those two days...I would have probably cried myself to sleep, too.

The second is, you know how everybody's wanting to date so badly? Or wanting to marry and have kids? The way I see it is hold off on dating until you are ready for marriage, because even without being married, some girls end up mothers. And how many are ready for babies? Raising a child when they themselves are kids? I'm not against young people marrying, provided they have God as the foundation in their relationship, and are not doing it to escape whatever problems they may have.

Babies are hardwork, and sometimes they will cry & cry. And...they need their parents to have a lot of patience (and love).

I am not ready for my own kids, and as much as I'd love to have one, I think I'll gladly enjoy babysitting my nieces and nephew for a few more years. lol. I am too young to be a mom. I mean, if by any means I were to get pregnant, then yes, I'd keep my baby and rely on God to give me the strength to be a good mom. But no, I don't wanna be a mom now. Altho it'd be fun...sometimes. lol

Oh yeah, one more thing...if I knew somebody who was pregnant at a young age, I'd not encourage abortion, but to either keep the baby, and if they can', or aren't willing, still give him/her life, and give him/her up for adoption because no matter your age abortion is never the option!