Last year
No apprehension
Just suspension
Over reality
When it came to
Bestfriendships
I was putting off
Inevitability
And short hair
Most surely
And vague thoughts
Wonderfully
And slaving over
Recreational masks
To make
A few bucks
(And now I make more than that
Every week
But still
Somehow
It's not enough)
I was excited
I felt alive
But compared to now I
Was stupefied
Because I get it now
I feel like I do
That you have to take risks
Go out on a limb
I backed out of singing
Last year
Was afraid
And now I am playing
Twice
Crazy to say
And one time at least for
Two hundred and more
I'm shaking in my boots but
I have everyone's support
And now I'm not enamored
With anyone else
And now I just need
To find the steel in myself
And now it's about friends
Because why not,
It should be
Because now it's about living
And love
And family
It was then
I won't dispute that
But I feel more in my shoes
Undoubtedly,
Every year
I feel more of the girl who
I'm evolving into
She's someone I like
She's someone that I know I
Can believe in
She is excited
For next year
For dances
And meeting new people
And finding a job and
Buckling down about school
For eighteen and
Concerts
And more cups of coffee with her Mom and
Back-and-forth with her Dad and
The occasional online
Realty search in
London
But I love it
I'm telling you
But I love it