Eleven-Thirty

Walking lingering laps around
We speed up when cars slow down
Laughing and talking
About whatever comes to mind
At a bit of a loss
But that is fine
Converse on the pavement
We decide to race
Let's go uphill
You designate
I'm left in your dust
But that's okay
And we're walk walk walking
Together
Fourth or fifth lap when
I stop and say
Is that what I think it is
You're like
Yes
We stumble away laughing
And I can't catch my breath
I say I feel crazy
We're both delirious
And I wonder aloud
Can it have that affect
When we just took a sniff?
So after tripping into something
A bit more cloying we
Head upstreet
Studiously avoiding
The guy who pulls across the road
You're saying that he follows
When I turn around
Squint at the night
You say you were kidding
And I roll my eyes
We tumble from the outside in
Head upstairs
Make some vines
That probably aren't hilarious
Which is, you know,
Still just fine
And when you leave
Even though
I'll see you next week
For those first couple of minutes I feel
Empty
Do you sometimes feel the same
For me?
You know,
I ask myself sometimes
Would we still be friends
If we weren't cousins
We're just so different
But then again
There's tons alike
Alike being which pals do not make
I smile when I'm with you
Technically I didn't choose
It was just
It was fate

Family Fare

I really don't care
with no emotion in my voice
He says I know you don't
and I wonder if he really thinks so
Under the fluorescent
Lights
I feel cold

Too Long

Occasionally I wonder what would happen if I just
Hit send
And then
Opened everything back up
The right way
Honestly,
The way I should have done
When I first knew
That I felt
That there was something wrong between us

Nearly Two Years

I'm feeling less attracted
I find you less alluring
As you change
Mold, shift and grow
While I remain the same
Or maybe I don't
I dunno
I just think
You're losing your effect on me
And though I've said it before
Now it feels like it's more
Than ever
That I can look at a picture
And not feel enchanted
That you can say something that
Isn't quite so transcendent
Because I'm sitting here
Thinking as I pore
Peruse
I'm bemused
By you
You're not as beautiful as you
Always are
Truthfully, boy
Over whom I've obsessed
Yes,
I'm kind of distressed
You look like a plain mess

Blank Slate

I like
That I live in
A perpetual state
Of little-to-no-makeup
Because some people say
They wouldn't know
How to be
Without it
Whereas I'm
Okay
(Mind you, some days)
As a blank slate

Feel Songs

The way it affects me shows me that I belong
That my skin is prickling with
Goosebumps that
I turn it up until it drowns
Everything out
be young be dope be proud
I mouth the words
I feel it now
And today standing over the sink
I heard the same words new again
In me it pulled something
Because I felt it on my legs
All over
for the first time what's past it past
For the first time I get that
I just want to immerse myself fully
In the world of music
And the people who make it
Sometimes I think
That I maybe can do it
The scary part is actually
The confidence to go through
With it

5 Minutes Later

Oh, never mind
I knew it would never last
Who am I kidding?
I already need you back