~the art of flying with broken wings~
 
choices made and words unspoken
falling from a broken sky
i never dreamed you'd be the one
who in the end would kill a part of me
you who made me so alive.
with gentle hands you helped me to unfold my fragile wings
you promised we could touch the sky, soaring on our dreams
I looked into your eyes
and knew you spoke the truth.
 
I stood a princess on the rock
my kingdom field stretched out below
you laugh rang out, your voice clear
whispered words fell on my ear
"I'll never leave."
a gentle breeze shook the summer trees
you took my hands
and i believed
 
Distance makes the heart grow fonder
but with every day the miles grew longer
counting the hours that stretched ahead
your words never left my head
a call every night, your distant voice
drowned out the noise of my life.
 
but one day...i began to fall apart
i felt my heart caving in
my silent screams fell on deaf ears
my beautiful wings drenched with tears
so weighed down
i could not fly
i knew that i would crash and die.
 
the day you walked away from me
i was left alone to bleed.
 
Cathedral of treest stretching to clouds
down on my knees
crying
my oustretched hands stained with ink
my face stained with tears
as i tell myself
one more time
you're not here.
 
breathe in, breathe ou
it's over now.
face the past again
i have no chance of moving on
unless i use my strength.
i gather up the pieces of the person i know i am...
the person i would not be
had you not stood beside me and believed...
wouldnt you be proud
if you could see me now.
the strength you helped me find
will help me face you.
 
the empty bathroom echoes
my tears pool on the cold hard floor
i promised this wouldnt happen
but better now than later,
or else the pain would just be greater...
the you i knew no longer there
in his place, a boy with an empty stare.
i watch silent among the crowd
wondering if you see me now
wondering
do you remember me....
or do you pretend not to see.
 
months gone by,
my strength renewed.
i know i'm finally over you.
my laugh is back
i can smile again
but tears still come when that song comes on...
i wont go back
you're the same old you
the one they said i didnt know
the one i never knew
a player with patterns
break a heart here
break a heart there
i watch from a distance, trying to decide
if the boy i knew was really you
the one who is rarely shown or shared...
 
then you called
late one night
you called me to apologize
i listened
your voice struck a pang in my heart
i missed you
but the call was an end
not a start.
i didnt try to stop the tears that streamed down my face...honest girl i am, i told the truth.
i missed you.
then you said you missed me too.
the snow was falling where you were
as you sat in your car
i listened to you cry all the while wondering
why is life this way?
why we had to suffer pain...
i cried
then
i forgave.
 
i felt the wings sprout from my back
the star shone above my head
i knew that i was free to fly
and i cout start to forget...
but whenever i look at who i am
a piece of you is there
and then i look around me
and i wonder where you are.
suddenly
so unexpected
memories begin to flood my mind
the secrets you told me to make me laugh
and there is no pain...
what's going on...
i see your face
your grey sky eyes
there is no pain, and you're not mine.
the name that only i called you
drifts around my head
i remember the boy i believed in
and softly wonder where he has been.
 
so...do you miss me?
 
what if... i stand in the cold parking lot
and a "what if" crosses my mind.
i remember the magic
i walk where we walked
i think of the times
we just sat and talked
and i wonder why...
my God is the God of second chances
but what is this supposed to mean?
what would i do....what should i do?
what do you want from me....
 
once upon a time i said never again
my time of knowing you had come to an end
once upon a time
i prayed to forget
the feelings that you caused in me
and everything you said...
once upon a timem i asked that God would lead the way
and keep me safe...
 
today
 
you were so close
your tired voice ringing in my head
natural as the sunshine
or a downpour of rain
i close my eyes and realize
i cant remember a word you said...

i turn to face the mirror
the girl i see is not the same
she is much stronger than she once was......
so much stronger