What should I write about?
Is there something wrong with me today? Nothing seems to stick to my brain. I’m just dry.
This morning I was serving at mass. I forgot to ring the bells during consecration. I felt so angry with myself. Who am I? A nothing, I don’t deserve to be up near the altar, and here I am messing it up. Serving is always stressful for me because there is so much to remember. The priest who was saying Mass didn’t seem to notice my mistakes. I think he was nervous too. He was a missionary. His homily was all about missionaries and money needed for them to help the poor; in other words, he wanted us to donate money. I somehow feel there is a lack of truth in those missionary talks. The same feeling you get when you hear “ Save the animals. Donate money!” on TV or see something about it at the zoo. I guess I’m just crazy.
Talking about the zoo, I went there today. It was great seeing those animals. Seeing the zebra was especially breath taking for me. It’s so bizarre and beautiful. In the Old Testament you hear a lot about bizarre and terrifying yet beautiful things like the seraphim. It is almost hideous sounding but still beautiful. Beautiful almost implies terrifying. A pretty picture or a pretty flower are totally different concepts from beautiful because something beautiful implies grandeur. Well the elephants are another example; we got to see them too.
I also got to see exhibits of huge spiders. I find it hard to believe that there are people who actually like spiders, not just put up with spiders. I have always felt a distaste as well as a strange liking for them. Something about them seems so evil. It’s their evil looking long legs and their eyes so oddly positioned and then their fangs. My ten year old little sister hates them.
We are going on a 10 hour trip to Ohio soon. It’s hard to believe anyone could enjoy ten hours in a car, though I can kind of see. I usually hate it. It might be better this time because we have a new van.
We use to live in Ohio and so we are going to visit friends that we left behind. It’s always stressful packing everything. Then knowing what to do in Ohio. We stay a week usually. This time we’re spending ten days.
Then it’s also hard being with out our computers for a week lol! I have to admit it is kind of hard with out them.
We just watched “Sense and Sensibility” with Emma Thompson . Yes, watched it, too. It’s something that comes of having girls in the family lol! It is a little boring but also very enjoyable. Thompson is a very good actor. She makes it come a live, Kate Winslet plays in the movie. I’m not a fan of her, but I think she does a pretty good job, too. They portray very different sides of femininity. A romantic, lovesick side, and a serious, stern side.
That's all the writing I'll do for now. My dad has to get on.