I wonder if I'll still have the friends I have now. I wonder if we'll spend our lives together or if after a few years, maybe even months, all go our seperate ways, or leave one by one.

I'm scared of us all growing up. Worrying about college, cars, jobs, houses, marriage, and everything else. some of us are already worrying about these.

I realize we cant joke about extremely stupid things and chat on AOL forever.

This truly scares me. I dont want to grow up. I seem to be forced to though. Even though these years are tough, I admire thier challenge because my friends are going through lives very similar. But being adults, are we going to cheer ourselves up with cartoons and bands? When we're older, we wont be able to go online and 98 times out of 100 have someone on there to talk to and offer you comfort and wise words. You'll be almost completely alone.

I'm not just afraid of bad times to come. We share alot of awesome experiences together, and they are some of the best times ive ever had. The ones i crack up just thinking about.

But I'm scared that new people will come and we wont have these experiences. We wont be able to say "remember when he.." or "wasnt that funny?"

I'm afraid we wont even have time together. When we do spend time together, maybe it will only be going out for lunch, talking about bosses, divorces, and stuff at this age cant even start to grasp? What if we al dont make it with each other this far?

I think we're all growing up too fast. in my opinion, we're a bit more mature then alot of kids our age, but in some..way behind. I think we're all different people..but in many ways, so much alike. I think we're perfect. we have perfect defects.