I guess the whole thing happened pretty fast, you know? The thing is, I predicted something else. I thought I went through all the logical steps. I figured worst case, the consequences would be isolated. And oh, I couldn't help it. I want to blame everything else, but there's no escaping the fact that about half of it is my fault. Maybe a little less. I don't know. I'm confused and angry and pretty embarrassed, but mostly I wish I could imagine myself acting differently. I suppose I will have to be less impulsive the next time I start a war.