Caught in a Crashing Wave of Loneliness

Submitted by Amy on Tue, 03/16/2010 - 04:56

I remember covering my mouth to keep from laughing out loud from excitement.

Now I clamp my hands over my face to stifle tears and wails, all spontaneous, erupting, leaving me shaking and wretched.

I don’t want to try anymore. I want a little happiness to come easily. I guess I’ll throw myself around until I run into something I can endure.

I don’t want to fight through the loneliness and pain. I want spring. I want joy. I want to wrap the people I love in my arms and never let go.

Is there hidden sadness in everything? I can't breathe like this.

Please God, I don’t see how I can be happy. Please let me see. Please let me see something soon.

Author's age when written
18
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Comments

This is very interesting......Is this happening to you? It seems very real.

"You were not meant to fit into a shallow box built by someone else." -J. Raymond

That was amazingly beautiful, and YES, very real. It reminds me of a story i once wrote...it was a rewriting of Rapunzel. That was beautiful and sad and perfect all at once. Thumbs high and a-flamin lol.

I don't know if this is real or not, but I'm praying for you - HARD.

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question." - Harun Yahya

Maybe I find this lovely because of the rhythm

Maybe I find it lovely because I can relate entirely

Maybe I find this lovely because it looks like a soul bared

Maybe I find this lovely because it is

Sad...but lovely.  Very lovely.

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"I don't know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve." -Bilbo Baggins [The Lord of the Rings]

I like it...it's very unique, and very true! :D  And real. Very real!
 

Oh, Amy, could you possibly email me sometime?!  We live pretty close, and I know your brother...sorta :D